The yards been mowed!!! Day 46
Aug 23, 2018
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and welcome to Wednesday
so today started a little different so
what me
so last night I think I told you guys I
wasn't really feeling a hundred percent
I had a really bad headache I just
really wasn't filling it and I don't
really know what the cause was but I
just did not feel good and so when I
closed last night I was just like my
stomach was starting to hurt and I was
really cold like I could not seem to get
warm and so I ended up shutting the air
conditioner off like I mean I was
freezing and my stomach was just like
I'm just like upset and I thought gosh I
don't know what is going on like this
just isn't typically me and um so I
ended up telling all the I said you know
honey I think I'm gonna end up going to
bed early tonight like I really feel
like I just need some extra sleep like
just I need it I ended up you guys
listen to this okay normally I do not go
to bed before 1:00 roughly about 1 and
usually I'm up about 7 so that's all 6
hours of sleep now mind you in between
that I gotta get up and go to the
bathroom and deal with s.r.o and stuff
so I mean give or take with some broken
sleep probably about 5 and a half hours
is what I actually get every single
night which I can consider that good
sleep but not good sleep when I'm being
very active during the daytime now
versus before I did a lot of just
sitting and so now
that I'm up and I'm moving I'm using
energy that energy that I was saving by
sitting I'm using and so by the time it
comes bedtime and you know dealing with
kids and stuff like that I'm just it
purely exhausted I really really am so I
ended up going to bed at 8:30 last night
me and Ezra were out and I don't
remember going to sleep you don't
remember the last thing I said to
anybody next thing you know I wake up at
I want to say it was like 9:00 it's like
9 o'clock 9 o'clock I could not tell you
the last time I slept past I mean 8
o'clock is like the latest since I've
had my kids so high but at 11 o'clock
last night my stomach was just really
still hurting me when I woke up to go
the bathroom so I took some pepto-bismol
I thought well maybe you know that will
coat my tummy and just make me feel
better and I mean I just felt like I'm
on the verge of wanting to throw up I
just I was thinking I was coming down
with the flu
so with that I ended up calling and
canceling my counseling session at 11:30
last night because I was like I know I'm
not gonna make this like I just I need
to rest
and that's what I did so I woke up this
morning
so just energetic and feeling so
refreshed like I felt like a whole new
person and I got up and I took a shower
and I just felt amazing and we were
gonna go to Target and I just I decided
not to I decided just to wait because I
don't want to push myself too hard and I
know
now I'm really pushing myself not to a I
mean not to an extent that's dangerous
or anything I mean obviously but I am
pushing myself and I am making myself
uncomfortable and that's a good thing
but I don't want to push myself to the
point where I'm pushing myself and then
pushing myself even on top of that
because then I can feel like I can set
myself back a little bit so I decided
just to forget it I was like nevermind
ain't doing it I'm not gonna go to
Walmart Target so I went ahead and told
Ollie that he could bring me in the
baby's home and take Jeremiah to go and
get his school supplies and then we got
home and I came into here I came into
the room and I just just crawled up on
the bed and I had my laptop and I was
just you know internet searching nothing
to do
just relax team and so all I ended up
taking all the kids and going and doing
the school shopping and I was like
really so I took that time and just
caught up on some of my shows and just
had some me time and it felt amazing
like I really I think I just right now
I'm really needing that I think I need
that solitare quiet a me time you know
and I've I haven't gotten it much lately
I really have it and I know as much as
it's so important to take time for
yourself it's very hard to find that
especially when you know your kids know
you're here so and you guys have heard
it they sat at my door
scream and yell at me
hey banging on the door so I end up
feeling guilty cuz I'm the type of mom
that doesn't want to hear her kids
screaming and I fall in and I end up
leaning the door and letting him end and
then as I'm letting them and I'm by
quantifies I think in this old I'm so um
I just when he took the kids I really
needed that quiet time and I just I
really can't tell you how many times I
just felt amazing would happen more
often
no but it was nice and then when they
came home to her my I was so excited to
show me all of his school supplies and
so that was really nice and then let's
see what else I got news that my grandma
had surgery today I knew a surgery was
coming up um I knew surgery was coming
up for her she she's 93
she'll be 94 in March and she's gotten
to the point where her skin has gotten
very thin and she has a year ago she
fell on her way to come to my house she
was stepped out her door and fell and
broke her hip and since then she's just
had a lot of issues with her links and
stuff
but now it's to the point when she you
know like if something brushes even
against her skin it just tears and it's
not wanting to heal so she did have some
surgery today and everything went good
um so I'm gonna be calling her this
evening to check on her I did not know I
told her I said grandma call me the
night before and let me know when the
surgery is because at that point when
she told me she didn't know the surgery
date and so I get a birthday card today
that says I'm having surgery up on the
23rd which i think is today and I'm like
oh thanks grandma thanks no I think it's
the 22nd anyways anyway it ended up
being today the day that I got the card
so
I was just like oh my gosh but she's
doing good I talked to my aunt but she
said that grandma would love to hear
from me so of course I will call my
grandma but that was kind of a because
you know what 93 anything can happen and
of course you know she's lived a long
long life and she feels very blessed to
have been able to I mean she's been able
to see her children her grandchildren
her great-grandchildren and now her
great great grandchildren so that's
amazing that is an amazing thing for
people to be able to live that far and
are that long and be able to see so many
of their generations a family that they
created that came from them and so yeah
it was it was a sigh of relief once I
knew when the surgery was good and it
probably was a good thing that I found
out the day of because I would have
stressed until the day that she had the
surgery so that was a little update and
what else I went out today and I
mastered something that I haven't done
for a long time and it was mowing the
yard now my yard is like I'll have to
show you guys like a glimpse of it one
day when I'm pulling out it's like a
hill and so when you know you're mowing
the yard you're going up hill and down
it'll and it's not this most solid piece
of land it's like bumps so it's not the
easiest but I managed to last about 15
to 20 minutes and tell you it was 98
degrees so it was harder than crap
I'm dressed like this so I mean I had my
work stuff on it--and look like this but
I mean I had I was covered and it was
fairly warm but I did it
and I got about 15 to 20 minutes in it
and I was dying I was like oh I mean I
could not even get breath in because the
heat me being out of shape I was like oh
I can't do this
so finally I was just like okay I am
cutting it I can't but then it dawned on
me that's like you know my beautiful son
that is ten years old going to be 11 in
just a few short months sitting his nice
little heinie in a nice cool house why
Mama's how do in the yard and I was like
nanana nanana you're gonna get a little
out here and you're going to find out
what it's like to mow a yard and so he
comes out and of course he's very um
he's very hesitant to try new things
he does not believe in himself very much
which was really sad and I don't know if
it's just a lack of confidence I don't
really know where that falls into place
but he's just very he gets very um
worked up um I can't do it I can't do it
I'm like you've never even tried and so
I was like you know what no you're gonna
do this he's looking can I can I was
gonna record it and then my phone was in
the house and I was just like okay I am
too tired I am too hot to go and get it
and I'm not about to make him go do it
he's already man so I was like no you're
gonna do this like you can totally do
this there's nothing I'm capable of if
you set your mind to it I'm like you can
do this so I showed him how to start it
up and so he did that and he started and
he could humor him he made it down the
hill and then he was kind of coming back
up the hill and he you know was having a
hard time getting it up and I'm like you
can do it he was like he turns it off
and he's like I just can't I just can't
I'm like no the word I can't is not a
word like if you want to do this or you
are being told to do this but I mean if
it's something that you set your mind to
you can do it it's a matter if if you
believe in yourself
enough
and it was so cool because able to use
that time as a learning thing for him
because there's no reason that he
doesn't know how to do these things
I remember at his age you know me or
even neighbor kids would go around to
the neighbors asking if we can mow their
lawn to make a couple extra pocket
change
you know money and so it's like I know
that he's not too young to do it he's
very safe in what he does I was standing
right there so it definitely wasn't like
I just like gave him the mow the lawn
mower and said bye and figure it out
um but once you know and then Ollie had
come out because I told Holly just to
wait you know because all I wanted to
take it over and I was like no we need
to allow him to try this build his
confidence let him know he can do it and
encourage him to keep trying so all he
was like oh okay that's fine well then
he came out and showed my a couple
tricks and trades you know to make it a
little bit easier and once Jeremiah got
the whole like the hang of it he was
just like yeah I can do this and then
you could start seeing a smile a little
bit more and a little bit more and a
little like he was getting really
excited and I just kept encouraging him
and saying you know you're doing such an
amazing job you know the yard looks
really good and of course there's still
some pieces that have some long grass
and in in in-between it stuff but you
know what he tried and that's what
mattered and the most best part of it
all was watching him build his
confidence to know that he could do it
and then by the end he actually was
enjoying it it was hot and he had to
stop and get some drinks but in the end
I seen the enjoyment of seeing how the
yard started and what it looked like
after and then at the very end after
everything was said and done then he was
told that he earned $10 and he was so
excited and then daddy told him that if
you know he starts helping a little bit
more with the yard with dead
you know because Olli will edge it
stuff cuz of course I'm not you know
we're not at that point where we could
just let him have like a weed eater but
you know if he wants to help like spray
the weeds and you know pull some stuff
and make the yards look nice with dad
well he's like you know what we'll give
you $15 and you're gonna build yourself
to have how much money and you could
save that for your ps4 games and
different things like that that you want
that you're not you know we're not just
gonna go and buy all the time
because he's at the age now where this
is where you have to install
responsibility because if not they're
gonna grow up to one expect everything
to be handed to them to they're gonna
become lazy and just not want to do
anything or have any ambition whatsoever
and three they're not gonna have that
self-confidence that they can they can
master anything if they really truly
want to do it and those are my goals you
know as a parent that's our our job as a
parent to install those things in our
children and you know sometimes I
remember when Jeremiah was four is he
for yeah when he was four he well I
started him on you know that's when he
started doing chores he would get his
dirty clothes from his bedroom and he
would go around and gather all the dirty
clothes and his you know in the basket
the rule basket makes it easier for him
so he had rolled his the basket around
pick up everybody's dirty clothes out of
their baskets take it to the laundry
room dump it and then he would put the
rolling basket back and that was his
chore every other day and then it went
to after he did that until he was about
well about that same time he started
learning how he used to clean his room
and keep it up and put toys away if
you're gonna bring toys out there's you
know you have to put your stuff back of
course I would have to go in there and
you know do the the final sweep through
of you know dusting and vacuuming and
taking blankets off and washing things
you know I mean that stuff is mom stuff
but at 4 years old it's very important
to install that when you are going to do
some
theme and make a mess or whatever you
need to start being responsible to clean
those items up not everybody is going to
be there to pick everything up behind
you
yes he's only four but it starts now to
make him know that when he gets older
those things are still gonna be
happening as he's getting older so about
five and a half six then when he still
had his Torah of gathering laundry and
stuff every other day but then started
every day he did the vacuuming and he
would vacuum the living room vacuum in
the hallway he never vacuumed the
bedrooms because I was too afraid of him
vacuuming up toys or vac you know
something bad in my bedroom so it was
just you know the the simple things like
vacuuming just delivering himself which
in our old house the living room was
fairly hmm I guess it was nice size but
it was a it was an easy area for them to
vacuum and then once he got to about
eight then he started doing like taking
the clothes from the washer and putting
them into the dryer from the dryer to
wherever I told him to put him so I can
fold him and then he would help put the
clothes like I would fold everything and
then he would just go and put the
clothes where they belonged on beds or
whatever so like my clothes and you know
all these clothes he would just put him
on our bed his clothes he had put away
you know things that you know the
kitchen tells he could put away so it
just kind of like every couple of years
has progressed to something more - now
he helps with like unloading the
dishwasher he still does the vacuuming
he puts his stuff away he still does the
laundry but I also you know have started
now pitching in and of course oli has
always done some of it too so it's not
like he has this whole load every single
day I mean we max it out to where we
think that you know I mean he's not
always working if that's what it sounds
like because they need to be a kid as
well and I get that it's not all about
working working working he's not a
mister Cinderella but it is important to
install responsibility and I believe
that but when it comes to like mowing
yards and things like
I think that's a great time to start
installing money to also help with that
I have never been grown up on you get
allowances when you do chores because
honestly it takes a village to have a
home so everybody that lives in the home
needs to pitch in and help out somewhere
now Omar is three SRS - they're all both
gonna be changing ages in February they
both have chores themselves ester also
helps put laundry away
Omar god bless his little heart we try
because he's though he is my stubborn
child he is the one that Oh
anyways I try to get him to help do
things as for his more easier on that
part um because she loves to help but
Omar on the other hand you gotta catch
him in his mood because otherwise if not
then there ain't no luck there but by
the time he gets to four you better bet
that he is going to be helping do things
around the house because four years old
that's when you start I believe um but
again like I said you go outside and you
start doing like yard work or helping
wash a car things like that of course
you're gonna earn money because that's
that's fun you know I think that that's
something different than helping in
chores around the house so that was
really exciting to see him build that
confidence be excited and then by the
end enjoying it that really made me feel
like okay I did something right because
I pushed him to do this because if it
would have been him he would have
stopped at the very beginning cuz he did
not have confidence that he would be
able to do it he was just like I can't I
can't I can't I'm like no no no no no
back up you can but you're choosing not
to so once I stalk to him and calmed him
down and showed him the steps again and
then all he came out and showed him a
little bit easier ways he was able to do
it and then seeing that smile like yeah
I'm doing this that mean that just made
my night so yeah
was the excitement here and I didn't
like I said I didn't record it because
my phone was in the house and it was
just too much work to get him to come in
and get the ball um let's see what else
I watched a live tonight with a girl
that I follow a girl a lady that I saw
up on YouTube as well her name is
Melissa
Mendoza but she goes by age kitty and
then capitalization wall hooks of elo GS
and she actually is Sally she is
actually going to be selling color
Street no like stickers but therefore
eager no so they're like actual like
real nail polish but they go on like
stickers and I was watching her apply
them tonight online and I was just like
I was amazed I am absolutely in love
with them but I told her tonight because
she was saying that we could do like
parties and things like that she was
talking to everybody on her life and so
she was saying that she could do parties
and stuff so I asked her I said well
what if I was to find out from my
channel how many women would like to do
it if I was to be able to do like a
party somehow with YouTube with her
links so that we then we could all order
from her and she said yeah definitely so
I was gonna ask if there's anybody
that's interested it's called color
Street you can look it up I think she
said she was watching tutorials on it
I haven't personally watched any
tutorials on it just yet I'm going to
actually tonight when I put her down for
bed because I am really interested just
to see more about it but they're
supposed to last 10 days but a lot of
people on her feed were saying that they
lasted almost 14 days and they have
multiple different types of colors and
designs and you can put them on natural
nails you could put them on artificial
nails so I'm gonna take a look at it but
I was just curious if it's something
that you guys would be interested in
possibly I can do like a party or
something
and maybe have fun with that somehow not
how exactly how that works but I will
correspond more with her once I find out
if there's anybody that's interested in
doing it I definitely want to purchase
from her I want to find out you know
like I mean I I know how to purchase
from her she told us tonight but I want
to see how many people would be
interested in purchasing as well and if
it would be worth it then maybe we could
do a party and just have like a really
fun time doing it so with that said let
me know in the comments below if it's
something you'd be interested in because
then that way I would be able to get all
that information up and we can work that
out so anywho other than that I wanted
to update you guys on my thumb
look you guys see that it's probably not
very but it is 50% better I mean it's
still sore a little bit
not nearly where it was cuz like
remember last night I said it was
hurting all we down to here not at all
now it's just just tinder kind of like
in that spot where it's out now look at
this look you would think that I would
learn my lesson now I'm digging on that
sunlight like I don't know what is wrong
it's so bad I really don't know but my
nails are starting to look so pretty
like look and I've been using my know
that that polish that's stuff that I
bought the cuticle
no not cuticle um what did I say it was
the maximum growth I've put it on a
couple times already yesterday and then
today and honestly it's really making my
nails look so good like I am so in love
with it so I'm really into you know and
that's why I want to look at those color
straight things because honestly I I'm
really into just trying to keep my
natural nails the best I can for now and
I still have this don't you know I do
still have these but I haven't put them
on
cuz I really like I was saying I just
really want to give my nails a chance to
just kind of take a break and catch up
if I can I'm just like getting a little
bit thicker and stuff because they're
just they've paid a deep price for my
fake now so with that I am very excited
though because my this one is really
that's this stuff is honestly I would
suggest this stuff and excuse the fact I
have to have an abacus
s where I decided to get a hold of it
today because she has a little Ally on
her finger so now she's making me apply
this stuff to her finger as well drama
and so she got a hold of it tonight when
I had it sitting next to me and we
cannot find the lid nowhere so I'm
hoping but this will not let it dry out
I really hope not but this stuff is I
love this stuff this stuff I just I will
swear by this but it does help because I
mean I have just applied it periodically
throughout since yesterday whenever I
think about it I just apply it and it
really has helped my cuticles a lot like
even I mean I'm just applying it to all
of my cuticles and they're all looking
really good except for that one because
I'm learning digging at it I can't
handle heavy nice notes you know not at
all so anyways I think that was it I did
start out to vlog this morning when I
was gonna go to Target and then we
decided not to go so I erased it because
I was like okay what was the point in
all that but I did get my Dutch today I
did I needed it listen okay we're
talking about me not getting enough
fluids in I got this at 12 and it is now
like 8 I still have this much left and
this is all I've drink
I have no water nothing this is it I am
really failing on this whole fluid thing
and I think that that could be also why
I was so sick yesterday because I'm not
getting enough to drink I don't know why
I am struggling so bad but I literally
that's why I was saying I can go all day
and not drink anything can be totally
satisfied but I mean this is I don't
know this is I think oh 32 ounces okay
so 32 ounces and I have only drink this
since 12 o'clock I mean that's not the
that's that's absolutely nothing so I
don't know I'm frustrated with myself
because that purely shows me that I am
really really really lacking so I don't
know tomorrow is Thursday I don't know
what I have planned tomorrow thought I
had something but I can't remember I'm
gonna reschedule my appointment with my
nutritionist but I think I'm gonna
reschedule for two weeks out because I
actually don't have counseling for two
weeks because my counselors out of the
office so I think I'm just gonna take a
break from all my counseling for two
weeks
well yeah because I had counseling this
week already with my normal counselor so
I think I'm just gonna take a break for
my two weeks and try and get like
Jeremiah's situated with school and
stuff like that plus my nutrition
counselor is gonna be moving to a new
building so when I go back to see her
it's gonna be on a new facility which is
perfectly fine um so there's me a lot of
changes and stuff in there
I'm still looking for my phone holder
that I want for my phone I mean for the
car I was advised that the phone holders
that go into the Vince are like a no-go
because one I guess it affects when you
turn the cold and hot air on and it
blows through the vent it actually
affects the phone holder and it like
allows the phone to
drop and then also I guess it broke the
slider on one of the vents so I'm like
ah ya know yeah yeah so I'm not going to
do that but I have one I just need to
see it's a suction one that goes to the
window to the wind chill have a think
about it for me um so I need to see
because all it was like well it's gonna
bug me what I'm driving I'm like or not
really though because it's not really
gonna be much in your way because it's
gonna be up and down like you know back
so I don't think it's gonna really bug
you but I need one for that side and one
for this side because if I'm on the
passenger side I need one to hold my
phone on that side if I'm in the
driver's side
but then if I'm in the passenger side I
can just use my tripod and hold it so I
don't know how I'm I don't know I'm
trying to figure this out and it's just
not working um but I'll figure it out
and I'll let you guys know again I was
let it and I told the person I was
talking to us like just do some research
if you find something let me know and
I'll do the same because I am really in
the store looking and trying to find out
what I can use but if all else fails I
do have my suction one and it probably
is gonna be the best one I just need to
set it back a little bit so that way
when I feel like my phone might come out
of it it's not gonna go and fly out the
window cuz that's my biggest biggest
fear is that my phone's just gonna go
flying somewhere and then we're gonna
have a problem so anyways I hope you
guys all have an amazing amazing day
today I apologize today is not a very
long sit don't talk and no I didn't take
you guys anywhere today you guys were
stuck in the house all day but I did get
things accomplished and I got some
mighty mighty Amy Amy time Amy needed
time so that was a big plus for me
because I really needed it but otherwise
we had a really really good day so I
hope that you guys again had an amazing
day and I will check in with you guys
tomorrow and let you guys know what is
in store and what we're up to
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